Tag Archives: Survivors

The Day No T-Shirt Slogan Worked

Throughout this essay, the quotes depicted are found on actual t-shirts for sale on the Internet. My breast implants are shifting. The plastic surgeon warned me two years ago that it would likely happen. At the time, I had just finished up an intense year of multiple surgeries, chemotherapy, and radiation. I was set to begin physical therapy to increase… Read more »

The Day I Knew How to Support

It’s October, which means social media is saturated with ways to “support” breast cancer awareness, research, and patients. These are the top three ways family, friends, acquaintances, and strangers have best supported me since I was diagnosed with breast cancer three years ago: Being My Village Empathy goes a long way in our world, and we talk about how it… Read more »

The Day I Didn’t Laugh

amy   September 29, 2016   No Comments on The Day I Didn’t Laugh

  When nervous, I break out the comedy. It’s a family trait; my dad and my brothers do the same thing. We go into full stand-up mode when tension gets thick. I’m not sure how my mother has dealt with it over the years, and I suspect she considers all four of us annoying because of it. It’s tough to… Read more »

The Day I Didn’t Feel Safe

When I was first diagnosed with breast cancer three years ago, I knew that many women and men had received their own diagnoses before I did. Many others had felt the shock, the disappointment, and the worry that I was experiencing. Sadly, many others have also experienced it after me, and some for the second or third time. I was… Read more »

The Day My CT Scan Wasn’t Clear

Last week, I wrote about the anxiety and guilt surrounding the wait for routine test results. It was my first CT Scan post-diagnosis, and I was confident that the longer it took to receive the results the more in the clear I was. This led me to feelings of guilt, because so many other cancer patients are dealing with recurrence. When you… Read more »

The Day Radiology Scanned My Guilt

  Some breast cancer patients who have had bilateral mastectomies require yearly CT Scans. I didn’t expect to be one of them, but during surgery a cancerous area was discovered on my chest wall. That cancer was not visible during the diagnostic ultrasound that confirmed two areas of concern. That cancer was not biopsed with the others while I was… Read more »

The Day a Stranger Became Me

Yesterday I was scrolling through my Facebook Newsfeed when I saw an image of a mother with pink hair breastfeeding, captioned with the title “Mom Prepares for Cancer Battle with Final Breastfeeding Photo Shoot.” Countless memories and thoughts streamed through my mind, and it was a moment or two before I realized I was holding my breath. Since my breast cancer diagnosis on… Read more »

The Day I Made My Son Anxious

  It was 7:30 AM, and a full week since the last day of school. Baby #2 perched at the end of a kitchen chair, his eyes watching me as I emptied the dishwasher. “So, now what?” he asked timidly, studying my body language and facial expression. I could see the tension in his shoulders and the anxiety in his… Read more »

The Day I Took in the Noise

When people look at me, what do they see? If I’m at the gym, maybe they notice that my t-shirt doesn’t lay across my chest normally, or that I tend to favor my left arm. If I’m attending an evening meeting, maybe they notice that I’m showing signs of fatigue, and that how I articulate is different then than it… Read more »

The Day I Didn’t Scratch My Face Off

It’s springtime! Signs of life are all around us, with little critters and animals scurrying about, flowers in full bloom, and trees filling out their canopies of leaves…and I want to pop out my eyeballs, dunk them in Benedryl, and stay holed up in my air-conditioned house until…oh, I don’t know…maybe winter? Since my breast cancer diagnosis, seasonal allergies, which began in… Read more »