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The Day He Liked Me

amy   February 16, 2017   No Comments on The Day He Liked Me

  There was once a college girl who threw a house party with her roommates. Early on in the evening, the front door opened and a guy entered with a few of his friends. He smiled at her as he stood on the landing, and she looked down at him from the top of the staircase. As they gazed into… Read more »

The Day Nerves Were on my Nerves

  I’ve been snippy lately, and it isn’t just because of the country’s political climate. For the past few months, the occasional discomfort, muscle twinges, and tingly jolts on and around my chest since my breast cancer journey began have crescendoed into constant pain. When I first get up in the morning, I feel normal. I awake without thinking about… Read more »

The Day No T-Shirt Slogan Worked

Throughout this essay, the quotes depicted are found on actual t-shirts for sale on the Internet. My breast implants are shifting. The plastic surgeon warned me two years ago that it would likely happen. At the time, I had just finished up an intense year of multiple surgeries, chemotherapy, and radiation. I was set to begin physical therapy to increase… Read more »

The Day I Didn’t Feel Safe

When I was first diagnosed with breast cancer three years ago, I knew that many women and men had received their own diagnoses before I did. Many others had felt the shock, the disappointment, and the worry that I was experiencing. Sadly, many others have also experienced it after me, and some for the second or third time. I was… Read more »

The Day My CT Scan Wasn’t Clear

Last week, I wrote about the anxiety and guilt surrounding the wait for routine test results. It was my first CT Scan post-diagnosis, and I was confident that the longer it took to receive the results the more in the clear I was. This led me to feelings of guilt, because so many other cancer patients are dealing with recurrence. When you… Read more »

The Day Radiology Scanned My Guilt

  Some breast cancer patients who have had bilateral mastectomies require yearly CT Scans. I didn’t expect to be one of them, but during surgery a cancerous area was discovered on my chest wall. That cancer was not visible during the diagnostic ultrasound that confirmed two areas of concern. That cancer was not biopsed with the others while I was… Read more »

The Day a Stranger Became Me

Yesterday I was scrolling through my Facebook Newsfeed when I saw an image of a mother with pink hair breastfeeding, captioned with the title “Mom Prepares for Cancer Battle with Final Breastfeeding Photo Shoot.” Countless memories and thoughts streamed through my mind, and it was a moment or two before I realized I was holding my breath. Since my breast cancer diagnosis on… Read more »

The Day I Cried During Pilates

  It’s no secret that my breast cancer diagnosis rattled my perception of what it means to live a healthy lifestyle, and I live my life now recognizing that “good health” and “ideal body weight” are not necessarily related terms. I had thought that I was healthy before breast cancer, but my lack of exercise was not doing me any… Read more »

The Day I Couldn’t Remember 2014

In 2002, I bought a Christmas journal. It’s a simple book with room to record 25 years worth of holiday seasons. I write down the gifts given and received, what cookies I baked, what celebrations we attended and what food was served. I also make note of the weather on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, as well as how much… Read more »

The Day I Was Thankful

amy   November 26, 2015   4 Comments on The Day I Was Thankful

When I saw Angelina Jolie’s comment saying “I actually love being in menopause”, I rolled my eyes. I have been grateful for her honesty about carrying the BRCA1 genetic mutation. She has done much to raise awareness of the plight of previvors, as those who are cancer-free but carriers of cancer-causing genetic mutations are now being referred to as. I… Read more »